mewgrrl

/ / mewgrrl strikes again

Wed, 18 Apr 2001 23:33:43 GMT

yeah... so, who would have thought that he would actually tell me the truth? Dan is leaving for the band trip tomorrow morning and I feel so sick. Four days, and I'm already declaring that I cannot survive without him. He's my penguin. I don't know what exactly is happening between us. He's my bestfriend, but I love him so much more. I'm his bestfriend, and he has no idea what he wants. Part of me wonders if he just acts like he likes me for reasons of pity. I really hope not. He read his poetry project today, and as he read I just watched his face. When he came to a hard spot he would wrinkle his nose alittle, and once he was able to get over it he kept going with such ease. I love how his eyes flicker, and the way he smiles. He's afraid to "risk" our friendship, but what is risking? I love him, and isnt that enough? I dont know. I'm going to let him make the decision. Whatever happens will happen, but I always want him in my life. I almost want to take a nap, but I am afraid that if I do Dan will get on and then get off and go to sleep because he has to wake up for the trip early tomorrow. Four days without Daniel... *sighs*. It equals out to about 96 hours.

Mofo, fighter.

Sun, 18 Mar 2001 15:49:27 GMT

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Bitch, I'm the mofo fighting supreme

Sun, 18 Mar 2001 15:42:27 GMT

This is so confusing. Why must I put myself into these situations where I think I can do anything, but really I can't? Im such a freaking "I can do anything" person. It's quite funny. Hear me laughing? hahaha. Anyway.

It is Sunday. I am awaiting a phonecall from the boy of my dreams who is probably still asleep, by my calculations. My arm itches, but if I stop typing I'll lose contact with the actual intelligent mindframe that I continue to hold with great ease. Lets ease, people. I have to work tonight at six, and *Daniel* said he was going to call me. This could be a sucky day if he doesn't seeings I'm madly in love with him and I want to do things with him, and if he says he is going to call then by george he better do just that.

I'll be back, I just want to see what this looks like... me being a new user and all.